
This isn't what I planned to write, when I was able to return to writing full-time. I had a plan, for goodness sake! I had notes - reams and reams of notes - character studies and character arcs. I knew where I was headed with it. This new thing? The cuckoo in my writer's nest? (Or is it a stork?) I have next to nothing. A one-page synopsis I wrote three years ago, to structure the story in my mind. No character studies. No plot, as such. No notes!! Just this threatening... itch. This idea that I could write this and it could be good, better than what I had planned.
Trouble with an itch? You scratch it, it might go away. Or flare up into something horrid.
Shouldn't I be wildly excited about writing something new? Isn't that a vital ingredient? Or, at least, hug-myself-in-secret excited?
I do feel just like a mother bird, who returns to her nest to hatch her egg and finds someone else's egg there instead. Should I settle and see what hatches? That's what happens in nature, yes?
Has anyone else ever experienced this sense of feeling threatened by what they're writing? Is it a danger sign? Should I step away, or hang around for what happens next?
Added: Usually at this time on a sunny morning, I am writing to the sound of seagulls outside. This morning, it's wood pigeons, and blackbirds.
Really empathise with this. I have several part-completed novels so I think it's a bad habit to get into, starting new ones. However, if you've got better instincts about when to stop and when to pursue a new project I'd say go ahead. But then I would.
ReplyDeleteHello, Sheila! Good to hear from you. I know just what you mean about unfinished projects - it's actually not my style at all, this hopping about. That's maybe partly why it's making me so nervous.
ReplyDeleteSomething similar happened to me recently - as I struggle with this novel revision, other ideas pop into my head, ideas for "better" novels. Is it a sign to abandon the revision and start something new or is it a sign I'm just being lazy? :)
ReplyDeleteI went back to the revision, BUT I made notes on my other ideas. I don't know that there's a right way or a wrong way, and every situation is different - go with your gut, Sarah. Trust your instincts.
Thanks, Madeline, and interesting to hear you experienced something similar - and made the appropriate notes. Nothing worse than losing those good ideas, is there? I'm learning to trust my instinct again, slowly but surely. Another writer friend suggested I give this new novel 15,000 words to see if it stands up. I like that idea, since it doesn't tie me to anything too major. (My friend confessed to hoping it would 'eat me alive' and I would love that - haven't have that raw feeling from a piece of writing in a while and would give much to have it back.)
ReplyDeleteHmm, now I'm thinking about trying my other idea for 15,000 words or so. Interesting concept...
ReplyDeleteI say go for it, Madeline!
ReplyDeleteI did the same thing three or four years ago and am still working on it...
ReplyDeleteDreamer, that sounds terrific - and are you still loving it?
ReplyDelete